Before the beginning of life as we know it, we were one with the Father. We made our home in Him, as we awaited the time when we would be called. Each of our spirits was joyful and full of love in heaven, expectantly awaiting what lie ahead of us. The chance to choose to come here to earth to fulfill your purpose. The purpose that God created us for, and the reason why we are here.
Each person on this earth is here for a specific reason and purpose. We have been called out by God, chosen by Him, before time began, to partner with Jesus Christ in this world. Each person’s call is unique, and each person’s journey to get there is a part of their story. How long have you wondered ‘Why am I here?’ ‘Why was I born?’ Isn’t it the ultimate question we all spend our lives searching to find the answer?
When I first came into a relationship with Christ, I felt that my questions had been answered. I felt quite sure that the whole reason I was born was simple: to love God and to know Him. While this is true, this is only a foundational truth; a truth meant to ultimately stand on as we continue to seek our reason and your purpose here. It is a very important part of why we are here, and without knowing God and experiencing His love, it is impossibly to move forward in your purpose.
But when he who had set me apart before I was born, and who called me by his grace
Galatians 1:15
As I began my journey of inner healing and found out that terrible abuse and more had happened to me during my lifetime, all my questions of ‘Why?’ came flooding back in. What kind of God would allow this to happen? If I was here to love God, then what was really the point? Because loving God had only brought me a lifetime of pain and hell. It was not ultimately worth it in the end to even live through such hell.
That is when God began to give me a glimpse of a much bigger picture of my life. I was not simply born just to live and know God. I was born to serve the purpose that He called me out to. Not only that, but it was the entire reason I was here and had suffered. I began to have hope that all my pain and despair in life were not for nothing. That indeed there was something much greater that I couldn’t fully grasp yet.
This new found understanding helped me to continue on my healing journey and helped me to see God in new ways. Many times God has brought me into His throne room and sat me down on His lap. It is in these moments that I have experienced not only His amazing love, but also where He has shown me great truths about my life. The Father has sat me on His lap and shown me exactly how I came to be here and why.
even as he chose us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and blameless before him. In love 5he predestined us for adoption to himself as sons through Jesus Christ, according to the purpose of his will
Ephesians 1:4-5
As He sat me on His lap I saw it played out before me like a movie. My spirit in heaven before I was ever born. My spirit knew the Father and loved Him more than anything. My spirit was in heaven and happy and full of love and life. And when my Father asked me if I was ready to go to the earth, I literally jumped up and down for joy. Yet it didn’t end there. My Papa told me He had to show me something before I made the decision to leave Him and go to earth.
The Father showed my spirit the great attack that would come, even at the moment of conception. He showed me the war that would come throughout my life, as well as the pain and the torture. However, He also showed me how that was a part of my covert operation to infiltrate the darkness, and come out the other side. That I would have the chance to use all that I learned in the enemy camp to fight the darkness, side by side with Jesus Christ.
When my spirit saw this pain and devastation, I felt fear and terror within me. Yet I was resolved, because my love for my Papa was so great, and my trust for Him so wide, that I knew I would be OK. I knew that I would be protected. I knew that I would return home to Him, unharmed. So I said yes. Not just yes, but an enthusiastic yes, jumping at the chance to partner with my Daddy. I was overjoyed at the chance.
Now the word of the Lord came to me, saying,
“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you,
and before you were born I consecrated you;
I appointed you a prophet to the nations.”
Jeremiah 1:4-5
As soon as my spirit left heaven, the attack came in the form of generational curses and blood rights. Even in the womb I was attacked, yet God sent angels to protect me, even there. Throughout my life God has sent angels to teach me, and Jesus to protect me. Even though my choice to infiltrate darkness has been hard, it has not brought me down. I have made my way out, and I am here, in the arms of the Father. I trust Him and I believe in Him, and I am willingly partnering with Him to fulfill my call.
As The Father showed me all of this, I was in shock. It seemed too good to be true. My life was not a waste. It had purpose and great meaning. I was not beaten and tortured and filled with darkness for nothing. It was to help people. To bring them hope. It took time and more experiences with God to further understand and digest this truth, but the seed was there, in my heart. And from there it began to bloom into something beautiful.
No one is here on this earth for nothing. No matter where you are or what you are doing, just like me you had a moment where you too sat with your Daddy and were given the choice. The choice to fulfill your purpose and partner with Jesus in the most amazing ways. It does not matter what the devil does, or what role he played in trying to steal you away. The Father is going to do everything He can, without violating your free will, to bring you right back home where you belong.
But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his own possession, that you may proclaim the excellencies of him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light.
1 Peter 2:9
All things we have suffered and sacrificed will be rewarded and turned around for our good. Just knowing that I am not here on this earth for nothing has brought me the greatest of comfort. Our life here may start roughly, or may feel like it has been full of torment, but we do not have to finish this race in vain. We can persevere and finish this race with all glory and honor from the Lord, our God. It all starts with a choice.
Do we want to believe that God has chosen us and specifically called us out for a purpose? Do we want to do the work to grow in our relationship with Jesus, so we can build a firm foundation of His love that we can grow on? Do we want to do the work it takes to bring healing into our broken souls, so we can began to live for the purpose that God has made for us? If we can answer yes, even if it’s only to one question at a time, we can do this. We can run this race well.
No one on this earth is a failure. While we may not all reach the place where we understand our purpose and reason for being here, that does not make us failures. We will still be rewarded, because we said yes to God’s call. We were willing to fight the fight, and come here to do a good work. That alone is enough reason for God to reward us with much grace and mercy. We see God as this far away God that is so uninvolved in our lives, letting the world go to hell. When all the time He is right there with us, and has never left our side.
And who has also put his seal on us and given us his Spirit in our hearts as a guarantee.
2 Corinthians 1:22
Our Father is a good Father. He is full of love. This world is a temporary place in which we come to fulfill our purpose for being here. Yet our lives do not end there. No matter what, we have the choice to choose Jesus and at the end of this physical life, we will continue on back to heaven to rejoice in the arms of the Father. We will forget all of our pain and strife and hell. We will cry no more tears, but instead know that we were faithful servants to our Lord.
Unfortunately some people do turn to evil and do not turn back in their lives. They make a covenant with evil and refuse the covenant they made with God. It takes a great, great deal of evil in order for this to happen. Many, many people will be saved, and most likely more will be saved than not. God is willing that none should perish. He is always at work in each of us to ensure we can use our free will to chose truth, love, joy and hope over evil. No matter how hard the devil tries to destroy us.
I pray that today you receive sweet revelation from the Father of His love, and that you continue to build yourself up in Him. Without knowing God as a Father, and experiencing His love, it is difficult to come to the place where we can experience this level of depth in Him. God wants very much to share all of this revelation with you about your purpose in this life, and when you are ready, you can be sure He will. Trust in Him, and never let go of hope, because this world is waiting for you to walk out your purpose. For some, it really is as simple as breathing, because our breathe saturates the air around us with the love of the Father.
For everyone who has been born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world—our faith.
1 John 5:4
