I have come a long way in my journey of healing my self-hatred, but no matter how far I come I can’t seem to leave it behind. So I am left asking myself: what is it about self-hatred that I subconsciously believe is helping me? The answer I came up with is my self-hatred is actually rooted in hatred for God. That might seem really horrifying to some, but if I don’t confront these deeply hidden roots inside of me, I will continue to live them out. If I don’t examine myself and find what in my heart is still…
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When I was a child, I truly believed that the Illuminati destroyed my life and stole every last shred of hope from me. Everywhere I looked, it proved to be true. My family betrayed me at the deepest levels, as I was severely abused in every way there is to abuse a child. Worse than that, I believed that God also had betrayed me. I believed down to the core of my soul that God abused me and then abandoned me to be abused by others. I have carried these beliefs with me for my entire life never accessing them…