Last year I began a study on Ash Wednesday, Lent and Easter. There in that study I found that the season of Lent actually starts with Fat Tuesday, also known as Carnival. Fat Tuesday is a huge holiday celebrated all over the world. It is a day where people gather together to celebrate before the 40 days of fasting for Lent. It is a time of fulfilling all of our gluttonous desires before we have to sacrifice the things that we enjoy and remember our shame and sorrow. Carnival (or Fat Tuesday) is a huge party where people feast, dance,…
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Self hatred has been as much a part of my life as breathing. From the time I was very young, the seeds of doubt and despair were planted into my being. I remember feeling hopeless, lost, confused, and most of all, unloved for the majority of my life. What I didn’t realize was that these were the very seeds of self-hatred that were planted and being watered daily. All it takes is a little hopelessness to create self-hatred and self loathing. Starting at a young age, we can become vulnerable to those seeds as they grow into self-hatred. Our desire…
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When I first became a Christian I had no idea that there was a “spiritual realm”. I had some beliefs that there was “more out there than what we can see”, but I didn’t attribute it to a spiritual realm. I didn’t believe in coincidence, but that everything happened for a reason. I also believed that we were all connected by one “higher power”, and that everything was affected by it, I just didn’t want to attribute any of it with God. It was not until I had been a Christian for about a year or so I started having…
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Dissociative Identity Disorder or Multiple Personality Disorder is something I have lived with my entire life, I just didn’t know it. I remember being a child and seeing Sybil on Oprah one day. The thought of having a bunch of different people living inside one body scared me immensely. She would just switch from one personality to another, each personality very distinct from another. To me, that was what crazy looked like. I have never had any reason to believe I have Dissociative Disorder. I have never seen anything even remotely resembling Sybil in myself, and I never even really…
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This past week has a been a time of great revelation for me. If you have been following me you know that I have been doing inner healing in order to disconnect from the occult and all of the bondage and oppression that has been inflicted on me since birth. During the past two weeks of my inner healing process, Jesus has been dealing with the damage that has been done through Facebook. He has also let me know that I am no longer to use Facebook and other social media, such as Instagram and twitter. So as of the…
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Depression has been something I have lived with for most of my life. Thoughts of hopelessness, despair, and a general sense of purposelessness have overwhelmed me on many occasions. Counseling and prescription drugs never helped me, nor did any other outside source I ever tried. The only relief I have ever found was through the redemptive healing of Jesus Christ in my life. For many, depression is a regular part of your daily life. It can bring about a great swirling cloud of emotions that threaten to take over. Once depression settles in, it is very hard to get out…
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Having a good life is something we all want. No one wants to experience, fear, pain or struggles in this world. Often times when we come into a relationship with Jesus Christ, we believe that those are things that we should be able to leave behind. Being a Christian should raise us to a new way of living that is free from sin and it’s effects. Unfortunately, that is not the way life works. Since the beginning of time, life has been a struggle. Ever since the moment when Adam and Eve chose to partner with Lucifer in the Garden…
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How many times have you wondered, ‘What is God’s will for me?’ or ‘How can I find God’s will in this matter?’ I think we all at some point in time come to a place where we want to know if we are doing God’s will or following God’s plan for our lives. It might be because we want to please Him, or it might be out of fear. Whatever our motive is, anyone who loves God at some point wants to know His will. Yet so many of us struggle with how we can know God’s will. It seems…
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This past season has been terribly difficult for me. We jumped right out of Halloween, a time of terror for me, right into Christmas, a time where the mind control programming is overwhelming for me. It all started with Black Friday. Black Friday actually lasts about four days, as the frenzy of shopping the sales extends into Cyber Monday. If you have ever been out during Black Friday, or have been caught up in it yourself, then you have seen the power of its grip over people. Without realizing it, you have intense urges to buy. The sales are too…
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The Christian church is where Baphomet has chosen to set up his throne. Baphomet is the embodiment of the Luciferian/Anti Christ agenda, and most likely represents Lucifer himself. The Christian church is the perfect place for the Anti Christ to set his throne and make his reign, because it is the place that is least likely and least suspected. It is also the place where he has easily hidden it for thousands of years. Starting in the Middle Ages, the Christian church began removing the Word of God from the hands of the public and reconfigured the seat of authority…