When I first came into a realization that I was still connected to the occult, I was confounded to say the least. I had come into this amazing relationship with Christ and had renounced witchcraft, and all my involvement with the occult numerous times. Wasn’t that enough? For some it may well be enough, but for me I knew there was something more than what I was experiencing in this life, something so palpable and tangible that I was willing to keep working to pursue it. That something was personally knowing Christ.
I had come to a point where I had seen the face of God, and felt His love envelope me. That was enough to know that what I was experiencing as a Christian was but a taste of what I was created to have. These times of experiencing God like this were mere moments in my life; and those fleeting moments left an impression on me so deep that I would do whatever it took to have more of the Living God.
I was so oppressed at that point in time. I had brain fog, depression, explosive anger, physical pains and much more. All of this was getting in the way of my daily life, let alone coming closer to God. If this oppression was what was getting in the way of my relationship with Jesus, then it had to be healed and removed. The problem was I had already tried everything I could think of to fix it, and nothing helped.
As the deer pants for streams of water,
so my soul pants for you, my God.
My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.
When can I go and meet with God?
Psalm 42:1-2
As I mentioned before, I openly renounced all of my involvement with witchcraft and the occult many times. I got rid of all my books, tarot cards, crystals, enchanted items, books, and much more. I even got rid of anything that was about witchcraft, such as movies with witchcraft, or fiction books with witchcraft. I was serious about cutting that part of my life off completely. So why was I so oppressed? What had I done to deserve this torment and hell I was living in?
The question was not what had I done, but what had been done to me. The connections to the occult do not always come simply because you chose to participate openly in witchcraft of some sort. As a matter of fact, many people who are attracted to the occult will most likely find they already have hidden connections to the occult within them. That is the reason the attraction is there.
In my last post I talked about being how being indoctrinated into the occult can happen to anyone and they can be completely unaware. I described how blood ties are all that is needed in order to create a connection with the occult into a person. You need not ever openly pursue witchcraft or the occult in order to have been indoctrinated into it’s belief systems. The occult is a way of life, much like Christianity. It prescribes to certain beliefs, thought processes, and mind sets. These beliefs are constantly reinforced through many TV programs, movies, music, and much more.
What I came to learn over this past year is that my connections the occult and witchcraft ran so deep, that even I was unaware of them. Many of my ancestors had been involved in the occult through false religions and worship of false gods and goddesses. Through these false beliefs they were indoctrinated into, they were convinced to give over access to, and the blood rights of, every generation after them. That was all that was needed for the devil to be able to begin his plan over my life.
The coming of the lawless one is by the activity of Satan with all power and false signs and wonders, and with all wicked deception for those who are perishing, because they refused to love the truth and so be saved.
2 Thessalonians 2:9
Thankfully God had a plan far before Satan ever did. He had a plan over my life to bring hope and truth into this dark world. He chose me to be a light, shining brightly in the midst of this darkness, and bring many more torch bearers into awareness with me. At first I really couldn’t hear any of this truth. It was hard enough understanding that I was still in the occult. Let alone that I had been tortured into agreeing to allow many more connections to the occult inside of me.
Many people like myself will have experienced the same type of things, to varying degrees and levels, and have no memory of it either. I only was able to come into the truth of my life because I was willing to pursue Jesus with every ounce of my being. That meant going into the very darkness I had been trying so desperately to hide from. You see, because of the terrible events I was forced to participate in, I believed nothing by horrible things about myself. It was those beliefs; that I was evil, bad, that God hated me, that I was irredeemable; that kept me from every wanting to seek the truth. How could I go to God to find truth when it was the truth that was going to expose how evil I truly was?
Yet week after week I have been willing to walk into the pain, the hell, the terrible memories, and allow Jesus to bring light to all these dark places inside of me. I have been exposed to so much truth and hope and light that it has changed me in ways that are absolutely remarkable. I have gone from oppressed to encouraged; and it is all because of my surrender.
God has a plan for each one of our lives. A plan to bring us into His glory in this world. A plan to partner with us to do amazing things for His Kingdom. This plan was set in place for before the foundation of the world was even laid. Yet many of us have become lost and forsaken in a world that seems to constantly beat us down. God has not given up on you. He hasn’t even begun to show you the miracles He will work inside of you.
How can a person who suspects that have been indoctrinated into the occult find freedom? Finding freedom is a process. There is no clear and concise guide on how to do so, but there are definite tools to help a person who is seeking healing and freedom. Each person is going to come to this path in a different way, because each person is unique. Every person has different levels of oppression and also of denial that keep them from knowing more about the hidden truth within them. Yet there is nothing that is impossible with God.
The first step is just to begin to try to connect on a deeper level of intimacy with Christ. Knowing Him more will give us so much strength to continue on a journey that can seem hopeless or impossible. Yet for some, there oppression is so severe that connecting with God is so difficult that it may take great strides to make any progress. Fear not, God will reward you for all your work to connect further with Him.
Deliverance is also another very important step into freedom and healing. It is only one step however. Deliverance was never created to be the completion of the process, but instead, the beginning of it. Deliverance with a trained ministry who knows how to get to the roots of demonic oppression, curses and ancestral blood rights is going to do a great work within you. However, every Christian who has a deliverance needs to do continued work afterwards. This life is a learning process, and a gift not to be taken lightly.
I never recommend self deliverance. We do not have the tools or skill set that allows us to get to the roots of oppression, curses, and blood rights. A true deliverance minister will not only bring us into a new level of freedom, they will also help us to connect to the Holy Spirit in new and amazing ways. They will help us to see miracles happen within us. They will help us to hear the voice of the Living God for ourselves. They are facilitators who allow God to come in and run the show, while maintaining peace and stability.
But now thus says the Lord, he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: “Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you. For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior. I give Egypt as your ransom, Cush and Seba in exchange for you. Because you are precious in my eyes, and honored, and I love you, I give men in return for you, peoples in exchange for your life. Fear not, for I am with you; I will bring your offspring from the east, and from the west I will gather you.
Isaiah 43:1-5
I recommend that every single Christian have a deliverance, and that they use a ministry that goes to the head demon in charge. For more information on such a ministry, please go to my Deliverance page. Many Christians will highly benefit from some sort of inner healing. Inner healing is going to help with healing emotional and spiritual wounds that have been stored up throughout our lives. Every person has some degree of emotional and spiritual trauma within them that has not been addressed, and it will fester inside of us if not healed.
Every person that wants to seek deliverance and inner healing needs to be deeply in prayer over this matter. It is not something to be taken lightly. If a person is not prepared they can be easily led astray by a minister who is actual trained to lead you back into oppression. God will bring the right people into your life at the right time. It took me almost 2 years to find the deliverance ministry that helped me. Two years of fighting and suffering and begging God for help. I had to be ready.
Warfare is a normal part of the Christian walk. The devil is not going to sit idly by while we pursue freedom and the call God has for us here. He is going to do whatever he can to try to trip us up, stop us, or throw us completely off course. Remember, he has already been working against us from day 1. He is not going to stop now.
Each Christian needs to begin to learn how to put on the armor God has given them and use the Sword of the Spirit to fight against the devil and his schemes. We need to be able to grow in discernment so we can understand the attack of our enemy. Every good soldier needs to know what they are fighting against and why they are in the battle. Each of us are soldiers in the Mighty Army of God, and as we strengthen ourselves in the Lord, we will grow our discernment and our battle skills.
Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God.
Hebrews 12:1-2
Having the occult hidden inside of us is not something to fear. The occult is just another device of the devil that he uses to render us useless against him. These devices are not something that are impossible to overcome, but on the contrary; we were created to overcome them. Think of it this way; you have been entrenched into darkness for a reason. That reason being that when you overcome it, you have the power and the strength to help others overcome it as well. The devil does not want you to overcome it, but when you do, you will be a powerful weapon of God against the darkness.
That is exactly what keeps me going. There are many days when it becomes so difficult I truly want to give up. I want to go back to a simple life of baking and taking care of my family and leave this blog far behind. God always is so kind and loving though, as He gently reminds me that even if I was to quit, the war would still continue. I was made for this, and so were you. Together, we can partner with Jesus Christ, to become an unstoppable force to spread the glory and goodness of God.
You don’t have to be ready, you just have to be willing. Trust in Jesus. Be with Him. Tell Him your fears. He already knows them all. Believe that He is going to redeem every bit of hell you have experienced in this world and absolutely turn it around for your good. He loves you. You were worth the highest price to Him. He paid it willingly, for you. No matter how bad you may think you are, how useless or worthless. To Jesus Christ, you were worth it all. And that is a fact that nothing can change.
“The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim liberty to the captives and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty those who are oppressed, to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor.”
Luke 4:18-19