When I first started going to church and learning about Jesus, I, like many others, wanted to have some sort of proof or sign that He was real. My husband prayed and asked God to reveal Himself if He was real, and God answered right away. My 12 year old son also prayed to ask God for a sign that He was real, and got one immediately after. God is so faithful and so good to us. He wants to reveal Himself to us and show us how much He cares for us. Yet when I prayed and asked for a sign, I clearly heard, you don’t need a sign, you already know Me. I was pretty baffled by this, because of course I did not know God! I had been rebelling against God for so many years and had denied Jesus without a second thought. Yet I heard that I had to have faith and believe, because I knew God already. What!?
So I moved forward from that point on, trying to discover this faith and trust thing with God. Over time as I came to know Jesus intimately, I began to feel that I indeed must have known Him already. He was so familiar to me. I began to feel that I must have known Him as a baby or a young child. It would make sense, because babies and small children are so innocent and full of wonder. It would be easy for God to connect with them and for them to know God. Then I took that a step further in thinking that if I could have known God at a very young age, then anyone could. And very possible every has! What a revelation that was! I could not prove it, but it felt so right!
That was a thought that has stayed with me over time, but that I haven’t put more thought into, until recently. As I have written about before, I have been going through a journey of inner healing. Through this journey I am working with the Holy Spirit to bring up memories from my childhood, so that I can get a better understanding of why I chose to become a witch. This is a crucial step in my healing and breaking free from the bondage the enemy has worked diligently to keep me captive to. Some of these memories the Holy Spirit has revealed to me that God sent angels to sing over me in my crib. I also learned this in my deliverance from demonic oppression. I have to admit the thought of angels singing over me sounded a bit crazy at first. I mean, why me? I am not special. Or am I?
The LORD your God is with you, the Mighty Warrior who saves. He will take great delight in you; in his love he will no longer rebuke you, but will rejoice over you with singing.
Zephaniah 3:17
We are all very special in the sight of God our Creator. There is no one, not one single person, that is not special and loved by Jesus. Even mass murderers and Satanists are loved and known by God! The Bible makes it very clear that God knows each one of us before we are even born! He has the hairs on our head numbered, our names written in His palm, and yes even sings over us!! This is amazing! If you have been walking alone for a long time, or are even struggling with your relationship with Jesus, you need to know that before time began He already named you!
I believe with all my heart that we know God intimately from the womb. We not only have a strong sense that He is God and created us, but that we have a bond with Him, and know Him intimately. It is only through life circumstances that we turn away from the knowledge of who He is (if you are not raised Christian like some are). Many people are raised in homes that teach other religions, or no religion at all, so they are taught away from Jesus. Many people have very difficult and trying circumstances as children, such as trauma and abuse, that cause them to turn their backs on Jesus. And many still are indoctrinated into the occult and witchcraft, being taught that Jesus is evil and bad. The devil will do whatever he can to turn us away from God, and use whatever he can to make us believe God isn’t real, or hates us, or has abandoned us. So many poor lost souls are out there right now, believing this horrible lies, because the circumstances in our lives were twisted by the devil to make us believe them. This is why the Bible stresses that we must teach our children the ways of the Lord. If we do not, the devil is right there, ready to try to snatch away our knowledge of God!
Do not think for a moment the devil has left you alone. If you think he hasn’t been an active participant in your life, to try to take you from God and bring you into his kingdom, then you are only fooling yourself. His main goal in this world is to bring us up into his kingdom, so at the last day we will side with the anti-christ, and not with God, sending us straight to hell. We have to stop believing that the world begins and ends at the physical and realize that the life is actually a spiritual experience and there is a whole spiritual realm we are completely ignoring. If you think you have problems and they are just caused by bad luck, rotten people, or bad choices, you are not looking at the bigger picture. Yes there are other factors contributing to your problems, but the reality is, everything in the physical is a direct symptom of the spiritual.
Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
Psalm 139:16
The Holy Spirit has shown me that I indeed knew Jesus as a baby and a very small child. I knew God and talked with Him. He sent angels to watch over me and sing to me, to prepare me for what I was going to have to endure. It was very necessary for me to have this time with Jesus so that I could be strong enough to be an over comer through harsh trials and pain, and come out victorious in the end. The enemy thought he had won, because I turned on Jesus and rejected Him for a good portion of my life. But here I am now, with faith strong enough to move mountains, and loyal til the end to Jesus Christ. I believe Jesus strengthens us all in a way special for each individual. The Bible also makes it clear that God sends angels to watch over us and protect us. That means you – God knows you personally and is watching over you, protecting you in ways you cannot even fathom. God may not always protect us from things that can harm us physically, but He always protects us in ways that can harm us spiritually.
I have heard that each of us has our own personal angel. The Bible tells us that the number of angels is thousands upon thousands, ten thousands times ten thousands, so it could easily be true that each of us has at least one angel to guard and protect us. Angels do great works for God and His Kingdom, and many of them work here on earth to help us. So it should be no surprise to you, that angels very well were there, singing over you as an infant. We all need protection from the devil, and this is a time in our lives when we are the most vulnerable. Rejoice in knowing that there very well be an angel near you at this very moment, ready to help comfort and protect you in this world. How wonderful that is. We live by faith, not by sight, and that is how we trust that God is with us at every single moment, throughout our entire lives.
If you do not believe a person can know God or talk to God at such a young age, watch this video of a 2 year old talking to God through prayer! She is alone in her crib and it’s caught on the video monitor. Something like this cannot be contrived!
My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
Psalm 139:15-16
