For the Christian, our hope is in the eternal life with God that comes with the salvation of Jesus Christ. For some Christians, it is easy to focus on the eternal perspective of life and not get caught up in discouragement as we watch the Antichrist agenda unfold before our eyes. Yet for others, seeing the suffering and evil in this world is unbearable as we turn our eyes off of Jesus and onto what the enemy is doing.
I know I for one have struggled greatly with focusing on my pain and the evil that is so pervasive in this world. It was set up at an early age for me to be entirely focused on self-preservation and to do anything to keep pain at bay. From the time I was born, rituals were being done on me that caused me excruciating pain and my motive became one thing – don’t die and do whatever it takes to stay safe.
The goal of the devil is to control all of God’s people and there is no better way to start that than in childhood. A child’s brain isn’t fully developed and is hard-wired to need a caregiver and trust those people implicitly. Even when they are doing you harm. So when your parent says to you if you do as you are told the unbearable pain they are causing you will stop, you believe them. Even when it doesn’t stop.
And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.
1 Peter 5:10
So my brain became hard-wired to focus on pain, whether it be the presence of pain or the need to keep pain away. That is how I continued to live my life because even when the ritual abuse ceased to happen, I had internal torment from occult loyal alters who were connected in past rituals to programmers and handlers. Those people as well as spirits were able to access me and cause me to continue to suffer outside of the ritual abuse.
I was never able to come out of a place of pain long enough to feel that I was truly safe and cared for, even up until recently. I would have days of reprieve and joy, but it was always trumped by the next wave of pain or torment as though the joy never happened. The enemy has been keeping me in a constant cycle of pain and programming so that I could not live in the Spirit and walk in the call God placed on my life.
I no longer wanted to do anything related to my call – praying for others, encouraging others, or connecting with God. Everything seemed to come back around to pain and therefore it must be avoided at all costs. Yet I have to say I am so thankful to have this experience because truly it has led me to incredible healing and an even deeper relationship with the Father.
But if when you do good and suffer for it you endure, this is a gracious thing in the sight of God. For to this you have been called, because Christ also suffered for you, leaving you an example, so that you might follow in his steps.
1 Peter 2:20b-21
After years of desperation and begging God to make the pain and suffering stop – for me and my family, I finally came to the end of my rope. I had to come to a place where I could say ‘God, I do want to know you more and why you allow suffering, but even if I can’t, I do trust you.’ And it’s not as though I hadn’t come to this place before – I had, but there are levels of submission in this process of healing. This was a deeper submission of truly choosing to believe God is good no matter what I see before me or feel.
That partnered with being strengthened by His Word allowed me to understand God in a new light. Something that I have struggled with because I have been programmed to believe God is inherently evil and more like Lucifer than anything else. I have had to fight through the pain of my beliefs and the programming to be able to even ask God these hard questions and then hear the answer.
And that is where I have come to the eternal perspective on life. If I believe that I was created to suffer and the only release is death, then that is a hopeless way to live. There is no room for God’s grace and love in that life. Yet if I believe that God has given me a gift of humanity to come and be a partner with Him to do good works for His Kingdom that will continue for all eternity because death has no hold on me, then that is freedom. That is life-giving and full of joy.
“Fear not, little flock, for it is your Father’s good pleasure to give you the kingdom.”
Luke 12:22
That is God’s promise to us as believers in Christ. Not a come and suffer then die, but a come and live a life in unity with God’s Spirit and watch as He astounds you with all the miracles of life. Experience His supernatural love and joy as He teaches you how to become more like Christ. Jesus didn’t come to suffer and die – Jesus came to show us that His suffering lasted only a moment and His reign is eternal.
Jesus’ life is a beautiful picture of what our lives are to be like – eternally connected with a loving Father who guides us through this time on earth and then continues on into glory.
“Where, O death, is your victory? Where, O death, is your sting?”
1 Corinthians 15:55
If you are feeling caught up in the pain and suffering of this world and have lost sight of your eternal promise, then it’s time to look inside and see the roots of where this began. Healing and deliverance are a process in which we partner with the Holy Spirit to break free from false belief systems, spiritual strongholds, and emotional trauma. All these are keeping us captive and unable to move forward in service to God’s Kingdom.
So for today, let’s start with an act of surrender. Father God, Yahweh, the Great I Am, I worship you and I surrender my life to you. I am desperate for freedom and desperate to take the next step in healing. Please help me to let go of the lies I have believed and the entanglements that have kept me from fully loving you. I need you and I can’t do this without you. Lead me in paths of healing and deliverance but even more, lead me into a deeper revelation of your love and experience of your soverign presence.
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