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    How To Survive Being A Survivor of Satanic Ritual Abuse

    June 3, 2019

    Being a survivor of Satanic ritual abuse is one of the most difficult things I have had to come to grips with. It has been a cause of great stress, frustration, confusion, and even depression. I have had to struggle to understand how to fit into a world that denies my experience as reality, and how to navigate through deep pain. Some days I am just fine. I feel great, I’m connecting with Jesus, and fully functioning. Other days I’m a miserable wreck. I’m angry or depressed or both. I get extremely oppressed and can’t think straight. It’s all I…

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    Victory In Christ

    April 10, 2019

    Hope is our life line, connecting us to God Most High. When you have hope you feel like nothing could ever bring you down. Yet when you lose hope you feel like you have a lead weight tied to your ankle and you are sinking to the bottom of the sea. We absolutely can’t live without hope. It anchors our soul and brings us a depth of truth that keeps us afloat in a world filled with pain and chaos at every turn. That is why when I lost sight of my hope, my life began to fall back into…

  • Christ: Our Living Sacrifice

    April 6, 2019

    When I lived for the occult, my pain was always greater than my joy. I lived in urgent expectancy of punishment, discipline, and death on a daily basis. There was no such thing as grace or mercy unless you fully obeyed, and even then the only mercy I received was temporary relief from the torment I was under. Every decision I was used to making was under duress because my only option was worship Lucifer or die. How can anyone, let alone a child, make a free will decision in those dire circumstances? Yet still, the more power they offered…

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    Living With Dissociative Disorder

    February 26, 2018

    Dissociative Identity Disorder or Multiple Personality Disorder is something I have lived with my entire life, I just didn’t know it. I remember being a child and seeing Sybil on Oprah one day. The thought of having a bunch of different people living inside one body scared me immensely. She would just switch from one personality to another, each personality very distinct from another. To me, that was what crazy looked like. I have never had any reason to believe I have Dissociative Disorder. I have never seen anything even remotely resembling Sybil in myself, and I never even really…

  • Hearing The Voice Of God

    October 23, 2017

    Hearing the voice of God is something that I think everyone struggles with at one point or another. For some it may seem like a distant promise that can’t really take root in their lives, for others it may be a very real part of their lives. I know I have struggled with this very issue myself, many times. According to scripture, everyone has the ability to hear the voice of God. We see this reflected in many verses in both the Old and New Testaments. My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me. John…

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    From Surviving To Thriving

    September 25, 2017

    For most of my life I have been just trying to survive. It’s like hanging on to the back of a speedboat that is cruising through the lake at 50 mph. Surviving is something that takes place of true living. You hunker down and wait for the storm to pass, except that it never really does. So you just keep hanging on as tight as you can, and hope that you make it through to the end. At some point in time I got tired of surviving. I didn’t want to just survive life anymore. I wanted to be more than…