• Why I Blamed God For My Pain

    July 15, 2019

    Pain is a terrible thing, but when you have been steeped in the mire of it for your whole life, it becomes a life force of its own. Pain has owned me, had power over me, and commanded me. It has nurtured me and taught me the foundations on which to build my life: suffering, torture, mistrust, hate, revenge, control. From the time I was very young I was under the grips of pain; it was truly all I ever knew. While all babies only want tender loving care and affection, all I received was hatred and admonishment. How can…

  • Why I Haven’t Given My Whole Self To Jesus

    July 8, 2019

    When I first came into a saving relationship with Jesus Christ, I committed my whole life to Him. I said, “take me, God, use me as your tool!” And I meant every word of it. The problem was that I wasn’t giving my whole self to Jesus. I was only dedicating a fraction of my soul to Jesus because most of my soul was not mine to give. Before I was born, before I was even a thought in my mother’s mind, my life was given away to the devil. My ancestors, going hundreds of years back, had begun promising…

  • Taking A Break

    July 1, 2019

    I am taking a much-needed break this week, but I will be back to posting again next Monday, July 8th. I hope you have a good holiday this week. 🙂 Until then, here is a past post that I thought you might enjoy! I love you all! <3  Again Jesus spoke to them, saying, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.” John 8:12    

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    My Journey To Respecting My Husband

    June 24, 2019

    It has been a long journey for me to learn how to respect my husband. I hate to admit that I have been a wife that has been harsh, critical, demeaning, demanding, judgemental, and even cruel with my words. I never set out to be that kind of wife, and I love my husband dearly. He is a good husband, who has cherished me and taken great care of me and our children. I have wanted desperately to change and be a better wife to him, but even as a Christian I could not tame my tongue. It all started…

  • How We Are Blaspheming God With Our Daily Language

    June 17, 2019

    Last Sunday I woke up under severe spiritual attack through physical oppression. It was very difficult for me to deal with because physical pain is a huge trigger for me. It takes me to a place of pain where I begin to see everything around me through a filter of pain. That is why when I have physical ailments I try to take them to the Lord Jesus Christ for discernment on what is happening to me. Nine times out of ten I need to renounce something I have done, allowed in or connected to, and the physical attack leaves…

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    How I Live With Dissociative Identities

    June 10, 2019

    I have Dissociative Identity Disorder or DID, the same thing as Multiple Personality Disorder. I have lived with it all of my life and had no idea I had it. Many people, like me, have a dissociative disorder and live normal lives and have no idea they have one. They may struggle with many problems in life, but they rationalize all their problems away and learn to cope and deal with life on a daily basis. Dissociation is a process in where a person disconnects from themselves in order to deal with trauma. It is completely normal and anyone who…

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    How To Survive Being A Survivor of Satanic Ritual Abuse

    June 3, 2019

    Being a survivor of Satanic ritual abuse is one of the most difficult things I have had to come to grips with. It has been a cause of great stress, frustration, confusion, and even depression. I have had to struggle to understand how to fit into a world that denies my experience as reality, and how to navigate through deep pain. Some days I am just fine. I feel great, I’m connecting with Jesus, and fully functioning. Other days I’m a miserable wreck. I’m angry or depressed or both. I get extremely oppressed and can’t think straight. It’s all I…

  • Praying Through Scripture Against Spiritual Attack

    May 20, 2019

    As a survivor of the occult, I have to pray against spiritual attack and witchcraft on a daily basis. When you have been involved in the occult on any level, whether it was your personal involvement or that of a family member, it can open you up to great spiritual attack, especially if you are in the process of disconnecting with the occult, or are trying to deepen your relationship with Jesus. The more freedom you encounter the harder the retaliation can come. The devil does not want you to be free. He wants to keep you captive in any…

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    Human Spirits And Astral Attack

    May 13, 2019

      I have addressed the topic of human spirits several times in this ministry, yet as I continue to grow and learn I uncover new information. For those of you that don’t know, a human spirit is a fragmented alter of a human soul that astral travels through the universe. It is not the actual spirit of a person as the name implies. During trauma, the human mind can become fractured, splitting to create separate parts or pieces of the unconscious mind. These parts hold all the trauma and memory of the traumatic event that created it. Sometimes these parts…

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    Baal: The False Jesus

    May 6, 2019

    When I came into a relationship with Jesus Christ after years of wandering and feeling lost and alone, I wanted nothing more than to completely turn my life over to Him. I wanted as much direction and guidance as I could get. I prayed about every decision I made just to be sure it was a good one because I knew that the God who created the universe knew the outcome already. I felt sure that with Jesus in my corner I would not continue to make terrible decisions that would hurt me. Unfortunately, I came to realize that seeking…