I have struggled with the concept of sin for a very long time. You see, when I heard sin I hear “evil” and “bad”. I have not been able to separate being evil or bad from being a sinner. I could not understand the true concept of sin and it has held me back from God for a long time. When I was a child, my family and the other occult members that abused me, used the Bible and God’s Word against me. So words like sin and hell were reserved for times when I was disobeying and were used…
I know there are many people who are struggling right now with feelings of despair, confusion, and rage against the horrible things they have had to endure. You may be thinking, where is God in all of this? Why would He allow such things to happen to me? To anyone? I have wrestled with these exact same questions myself and I am here to tell you how God is indeed right in the midst of it with you, according to His Word. God did not allow this to happen to you God never allows evil, He allows free will…
I have come a long way in my journey of healing my self-hatred, but no matter how far I come I can’t seem to leave it behind. So I am left asking myself: what is it about self-hatred that I subconsciously believe is helping me? The answer I came up with is my self-hatred is actually rooted in hatred for God. That might seem really horrifying to some, but if I don’t confront these deeply hidden roots inside of me, I will continue to live them out. If I don’t examine myself and find what in my heart is still…
I never wanted to be a dominating wife, but sometimes God leads you down one path in order to teach you along the journey. As a young woman growing up I began to experiment with intimate relationships with other women. I was tired of being “used and abused” by men and I firmly believed that if I was in a relationship with a woman I would never be hurt or abused. A woman would be compassionate and kind, and would never, never use me for sex. However, it didn’t take me long to discover that I was 100% wrong in…
Eight years ago when I came into a relationship with Jesus Christ I had no idea what modesty was. Honestly, I don’t know if I had ever even heard the word. At that time clothing was a way to “express myself” which mostly meant getting attention and feeling good about myself. I often didn’t care about comfort or proper fit if I felt that I looked good. I thought that if I showed off certain parts of my body I would get attention, and attention meant acceptance and love. However, all people are really only looking for the true love…
When I was a child, I truly believed that the Illuminati destroyed my life and stole every last shred of hope from me. Everywhere I looked, it proved to be true. My family betrayed me at the deepest levels, as I was severely abused in every way there is to abuse a child. Worse than that, I believed that God also had betrayed me. I believed down to the core of my soul that God abused me and then abandoned me to be abused by others. I have carried these beliefs with me for my entire life never accessing them…
There are times in your walk as a Christian when you will face extreme opposition by spiritual forces that can’t be seen. The enemy we face is not that of flesh and blood, but of powers of darkness in unseen realms that are seeking to destroy your faith, your hope, and your life. I have had many times where I personally have been extremely oppressed and I have gathered some useful weapons to help arm you to fight this spiritual battle. First, before we go into the weapons of our warfare, I want to define what oppression is. There are…
When I was growing up I did not have a normal childhood. I was never taught the things that a young girl should be taught about the basics of housekeeping or self-care. I wasn’t taught to brush my teeth regularly, take care of my body, eat healthily, or how to cook or clean. These were all things I had to learn on my own, and some things I am still learning at the age of 44. I have always been so hard on myself for not being better at all of these things. I have continually held the whip to…
I have always viewed suffering as a terrible thing, and have done everything in my power to escape it for as long as I can remember. Lately, I have to ask myself, why is suffering such a bad thing, something I have been so desperate to escape? According to Romans 5:3-5, suffering is actually a good thing, because it produces endurance, character, and hope. Hope is a confident expectation, not in what we can see, but what is unseen; that is in the coming of the Lord, the salvation we have in Him, and the eternal life we will receive…
When I was a new Christian, and completely enamored with Jesus Christ, I was on top of the world. I was doing my best to study the Bible, pray about every decision, and follow the leading of the Holy Spirit. I would say I was doing a pretty good job of it too. However, I was still living in a great deal of denial, and it has taken me a long seven years of prayer to finally come out of it. I am not saying that I have been living in complete denial this whole time I have been walking…