When I came into a relationship with Jesus Christ after years of wandering and feeling lost and alone, I wanted nothing more than to completely turn my life over to Him. I wanted as much direction and guidance as I could get. I prayed about every decision I made just to be sure it was a good one because I knew that the God who created the universe knew the outcome already. I felt sure that with Jesus in my corner I would not continue to make terrible decisions that would hurt me.
Unfortunately, I came to realize that seeking the Lord in everything I did was not working out as well as I had hoped. I kept hearing answers from God that would steer me completely wrong. Not every time, but enough times that I had to sit up and take notice. As a prophet, I eagerly share the prophesies I hear with those I love, but in one particular instance a prophecy I gave to a dear friend turned out to be completely off.
I was really devasted when I realized I prophesied such a huge life-changing event that didn’t even happen. I was so angry with myself and felt that I was not a real prophet, but instead a liar. By this time I was deep into my inner healing (which is working with the alternate personalities to heal them and become whole). I was able to take this problem into my inner healing session and find out the truth about what had happened.
Lead me in your truth and teach me, for you are the God of my salvation; for you I wait all the day long.
Psalm 25:5
It turns out that as a child, through Satanic rituals, I was set up to worship Baal, just as though he was Jesus Christ. Not only did I worship him, but in that instance, I truly believed that Baal was Jesus. In these rituals, they brought a man to me who looked like the pictures I saw in the Mormon church of Jesus. He had long brown hair and a flowing white robe. He seemed kind and gentle at first.
There were a series of these rituals in order to ensure that I truly believed that Baal was Jesus. As a young child, it is very hard to discern the difference between reality and imagination. If adults tell you something, you tend to believe it. If they add in trauma to the lies, the message is further driven home. For me, these rituals first established that this man was Jesus and that he cared about me intimately.
Then, they established that I was a very bad girl and had made “Jesus” very angry. So angry that he turned and walked away during horrible abuse. Then they convinced me that too if I wanted to pain to stop I needed to do whatever it took to make “Jesus” happy again. That meant engaging in sexual activity with him, being defiled in every way imaginable.
But he was wounded for our transgressions; he was crushed for our iniquities; upon him was the chastisement that brought us peace, and with his stripes we are healed. Isaiah 53:5
During these rituals, it appeared to be just a man, but Baal, a fallen angel, would come to inhabit this human body in order to make every act a connection with him. That is how Baal was able to convince me that he was Jesus. He appeared to be him, showed kindness and favor for me, and even punished me, just as it states in the Bible. At least, the scripture was twisted in this way so that I would believe God would punish a little girl this way.
As I stated before, this was a series of rituals to establish Baal as Jesus, and they were repeated periodically over the course of my childhood to ensure the programming stayed in place. Yet because of dissociation, I had no memory of these rituals, only the deeply ingrained belief that Baal and Jesus are one and the same. No wonder Jesus Christ became a swear word to me for most of my adult life.
It was because of all of this mind control programming that I would hear from Baal and believe I was hearing Jesus. I would cry out to the Lord and Baal would answer me. I could not discern the difference. Baal would either answer me or mock me into believing Jesus did not care about me. Either way, he was bent on destroying my relationship with Jesus and use me as his false prophet.
And the angels who did not stay within their own position of authority, but left their proper dwelling, he has kept in eternal chains under gloomy darkness until the judgment of the great day—
Jude 1:6
It took me quite a while to work through and process all of this information, not only in my inner healing but also in my daily life. I became so fearful that I was calling on the name of the Lord Baal and not the Lord Jesus. When you have had this deep level of mind control programming instilled it does not simply get removed at the snap of a finger. Yes, Jesus can absolutely work miracles, but these rituals created a large number of alternate personalities to be able to hold all of the trauma.
Baal, whose name means “Lord” has been deceiving people for countless generations, coming as an angel of light and stealing the worship away from the One True Living God. He is mentioned many times throughout the Old Testament and so has his female counterpart Jezebaal. Many of the Israelites, including their kings, have turned away from Yahweh to Baal, erecting statues and altars for him.
Baal has many of his own prophets, just as Jesus has warned us about. Baal longs to destroy all of God’s prophets and has succeeded many times. The most famous story comes from 1 Kings where God destroys the prophets of Baal through the prayer of Elijah. Baal had 450 men doing blood rituals in order to invoke his spirit, but he never showed up, because Baal knew he was no match for the Lord of Lords.
For false christs and false prophets will arise and perform great signs and wonders, so as to lead astray, if possible, even the elect.
Matthew 24:24
It may be easy to discount Baal as another name in a Bible story and to believe that ancient history has no bearing on our modern lives. Yet Baal is as real now as he was then, and as a matter of fact, he has only grown in his power and dominion as countless lives have been taken in his name. He is a devourer of blood, and his appetite for human life never wavers. He steals the souls of the lives he takes as he adds their family lineage to his roster.
Since ancient times people have sacrificed to Baal in order to gain power, strength, prosperity, or even protection. Every time a poor soul cried out in desperation or a need for revenge, Baal was there to answer their call. He is a despicable enemy who has learned how to integrate himself into our modern world so that he is hidden in plain sight. Every time there is a false Jesus, it is Baal in disguise. You may think that there are very few examples of this, but if you look closer into any mainstream religion, you will see him there. Even in our own Christianity.
For he rebuilt the high places that Hezekiah his father had destroyed, and he erected altars for Baal and made an Asherah, as Ahab king of Israel had done, and worshiped all the host of heaven and served them.
2 Kings 21:3
I am not ashamed that Baal has whored me out as one of his own prophets. I am not ashamed because that is not who I am. While my parents and their previous generations may have been set on my corruption, just like the prophets of Baal, they were no match for Yahweh. Our God cannot be bought and sold like a piece of jewelry or cloth, and neither can His children. Therefore, when He called me out before time to be His prophet, I was marked as His.
Jesus Christ paid the high price for my life, to return me back to my Heavenly Father. Just when Baal thought he had me for good, Jesus Christ came in and swept me into His arms and set me free. Jesus has removed my shame and the stain of my sin and called me into righteousness with Him. I never chose to be a prophet of Baal or worship Baal; I never had a choice. The things that happened to me were beyond my free will, yet I was manipulated into agreeing with it.
It has taken me quite some time to come to terms with the truth that I was used by darkness to harness more power for the occult. Nonetheless, everything Satan has done has been turned around for my personal freedom. The devil does not get a say over my life anymore, and that is only because I was willing to hear that I was worshipping Baal in the first place. I am not evil; I was created for good and temporarily used for evil.
As for you, you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good, to bring it about that many people should be kept alive, as they are today.
Genesis 50:20
It takes a huge leap of faith, and even more, humility to hear from Jesus that we have been manipulated and deceived into worshipping false idols. It hurt me so deeply to think I was ever disloyal to the God who saved me, but Jesus knew what I did not. I am loved. I am strong. I am His. No power of hell or scheme of man can take me from the love of God.
So here I am today. I may still have a lot of things to work through, but I am aware of that fact. I’m no longer hiding from the truth but confronting it when necessary. I’m not afraid of what Lucifer has done, because I know what Jesus will do. I repent daily of any sin, and I am willing to bow down before the King in every situation. He doesn’t condemn me for my past or judge me for my sin, but has the greatest compassion and mercy for me instead.
Our God is a wonderful God, who is slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love. Come to Him, all you who are weary and burdened and find rest.
The Lord passed before him and proclaimed, “The Lord, the Lord, a God merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and abounding in steadfast love and faithfulness Exodus 34:6
